February 8, 2012
Back in January, there was a big 2-for-1 sale at an art supply store near where I live. I bought a bunch of different kinds of art paper, including some pastel paper. I’ve been using chalk pastels for about 22 years, and I didn’t know until last month that there’s a special kind of paper for them. When I bought the paper, I didn’t realize the tablets were multicolored, but I decided to just go with it. I’ve been eager to try out the paper, and tonight was the night.
It certainly was a lot less messy than using regular drawing or sketch paper because the paper absorbed a lot of the chalk dust. I don’t know if I created a completely different kind of drawing than usual because of the paper or my mood or some mysterious cosmic force or what, but it’s interesting how blurred everything looks. It almost looks a bit otherworldly to me—as if I drew a landscape from a dream.
My friend Linda asked me a few days ago whether I was going to go see Noam Chomsky, who’s in town this week. She was going to yesterday’s event and said it was going to be very crowded. I said I wasn’t going, and she asked why. I said, “Because it’s going to be very crowded.” She laughed—a crowd would never deter her from going to anything—and I smiled with glee that I (finally) know how to take good care of myself. Introverts are (finally) getting some good press these days, thanks to an article in the new issue of Time magazine. (Unfortunately, you have to be a subscriber to read the whole online article. I get the print edition and liked the article.) Elaine Aron, the psychologist and researcher of the trait of high sensitivity whom I blogged about last week, has written an interesting blogpost about the Time article.
The reason I’m blogging about all this is because it’s such a joy to stay home and do process art. I asked my husband this afternoon how frequently he’d ideally want to go anywhere in the car, and he said once a week. That sounds about right to me. (We do many of our errands on foot.) Our lives are delightfully disengaged from much of the crazy culture that surrounds us, and we have some great space for doing art. When I was younger, and because of the way I was raised, I used to think I was supposed to work to counteract my introverted nature. Now I think my highest purpose is to be who I am as fully as I can be. It’s only from that place of embodying my true nature that I’ll be able to fully make the contributions I’m here to make.
Here’s a great quote about that:
“As a man’s real power grows, and his knowledge widens, ever the way he can follow grows narrower, until at last he chooses nothing, but does only and wholly what he must do.”
— Ursula LeGuin, A Wizard of Earthsea